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It has been a very long, very busy week and I apologize for my spotty posting.  The flare-up decided to rise up in rebellion and I’m back on the meds.  Only this time?   The dosage has been increased.  So has my nausea and as of this morning, my loss of hair.   The hair I don’t much mind. I can always shave my head or wear a hat.  That’s one nice thing about being a man.

This also means that I have to stare at the four walls of my bedroom with my legs elevated.  I’m getting cabin fever.   I keep thinking about the summers I spent in outdoor pageants and camping up in Colorado.  The days of swimming in Navajo Lake and Vallecito Lake.  Nights spent up in the hills around a fire getting drun… err… nature-fied.  Fishing. Ahhh..how I miss fishing.   Our family used to spend summer vacation either in Vallecito or Trout Lake in the mountains of southern Colorado.  I loved riding the horse trails and fixing lunch by some stream or snow fed lake.   This was, of course, before the Bigfoot phobia.   Hell,  if I ever get healthy enough again and get this weight off I’ll go looking for it!  I’m THAT desperate.  (Just don’t hold me to that, o.k.).

I listened to Miss Marge and I’m using hand weights and upper body exercises to help pass the time and increase muscle mass.  This in turn burns calories and larger muscle means more calorie burning capability.  Very smart lady that Marge.

In the meantime I have discovered a bigfoot webcam internet site with chat.  Well,  that’s an irresistable combination for me.   Bigfoot and the opportunity to brainlessly chatter away.   I feel sorry for those poor people. 

Why, you ask?  Well usually a phobia means having absolutely NOTHING to do with the subject you are having the phobia about and faint at the mere mention of it.  Not me.  Oh nooo… no no no…. of course not.  I’m stupid that way.  I want to konw what i saw.  I want to know why I saw it and why it exists.   I have so many questions and so very few real answers.  Normally I’m met with ricidule and disbelief.  A natural response I guess but it doesn’t help me.   So one bored day in my room with my legs perched over my head I decided to google bigfoot cams and found…..

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These people are crazy.  In a good way.  I love ‘em.  They actually try to ATTRACT the big hairy creature and try to capture it on film.  I am a strong advocate of non lethal forms of getting proof.  Even though I’m terrified of the damn things.  I’m learning a lot and finding others who have had similar experiences.  I know I have to separate the wheat from the chaff but there are very credible people in that chat and it’s easy to tell who actually had an encounter.   The owner of the site is a very hard working dedicated individual and I have a lot of respect for him.  He’s a braver man than I. 

Anyway, back to weight loss.

I’ve lost another pound but I don’t know whether to count it as actual weight loss or reaction to the meds.  It’s hard to say this but food tends to lose it’s appeal when I’m on the meds.  I’m too sick to my stomach to even think about it.   My treatments are three times a week and the days I’m not haviing treatment I tend to get overly hungry.   This can trigger overeating so I’m eating small meals throughout the day.  This doesn’t over tax my already touchy stomach and keeps my appetite at bay. 

I hope everyone has a great weekend.  I know I will with my squatch watchin’