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I found out some things that I didn’t know I could do until I had to.  (yes I ended the sentence in a preposition)

As I stated earlier I had to say goodbye to my second mom last Friday.   It was so hard.  She was the most beautiful person (besides my own mom) that I have ever known.  Inside and out.  She called me shiyazh and referred to me as her “half-indian son.”  I had known her for over 20 some odd years and I never even contemplated losing her.   Then I got the phone call from her son saying she wouldn’t last the week and to come see her.   She died two days later.  The day after Easter.  I never got to see her.   I think I’m glad about that.   Pete (her son) said she suffered horribly before she finally passed.   I’ve been crying ever since.  I told Pete due to my health I wouldn’t be able to be a pallbearer but he stuck to his guns and I did it.  I paid a painful price but it was definitely worth it.   I didn’t go to the dinner afterwards.  I couldn’t.  It was too hard.  Pete called me later that night and wanted me to come over on Saturday. 

We went to lunch (I was very good. I stuck to my portions and ate healthy)  I went to the park with them and realized the parking lot was at the opposite end of the playground.  It was a long walk and I have very little stamina.  But, where there’s a will, there’s a way.  I made it.  I sat the entire time of course.  I was exhausted.   We were there for two hours.  I had enough stamina left to make it back to the car. 

So,  I didn’t think I could walk that far.   Now I can look into exercising. 

I was stupid.  I jumped the gun and weighed myself.  1.5 lb. loss.   I can’t get too excited about it because I know how the diet yo-yo syndrome works.  I will stick with my weekly weigh-ins on Sunday.   I’ll be good.